Just Me Being Me ..

Click Addicted

Kristy — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 02:42:04 +0000

I have a new love. Her name is Diana.

A Diana mini Lomo camera. I have only gone through about 8 rolls of film over the last year or so, but am so addicted now. I found 3 rolls of Kodak Max that had expired in 2002 and some of these photos are from that film. Damn I love expired film!

The one with the truck and tyres is Sensia Slide film that was cross processed. I have also used Fujicolor Reala and Kodak Portra.

I am finding heaps of expired films on ebay really cheap about $1 per roll so if you are into film give it a go. Expired film gives awesome muted colours, love it.

These are a few of my favs that I have taken around Perth with the exception of all the awesome ones with people in them. Didn’t want to invade anyones privacy by posting them on a blog…

I don’t use any post developing editing software or anything it’s just raw film old school style.

'no swimming' Taken at John Forrest National Park

Heathridge Church + Graff

'the dirty end of town'

Mt Lawley

looking from Kings Park over the Swan River

Swan Brewery from Kings Park

a window... somewhere...

My year without sex.

Kristy — Fri, 31 Dec 2010 07:42:02 +0000

I thought it was fitting to write a blog on the last day of the year. After all I have been meaning to get around to it for ages. Have had so much going on in my life and in my head ..

2010 has been one of the most challenging years with some major changes to my life mostly positive but changes all the same. I have just finished moving into my new little home which hopefully will mean home for many years, stuff moving again! Started a new job which hopefully will mean a career, and finalising the separation agreement between myself and my ex husband.

Anyhow back to the sex part.

I havent had sex since March 5th!! It started out as a personal challenge not to rush into anything after breaking up with a boyfriend. Then well I guess life got busy…

Then I thought hey well 6 months has passed now surely I can learn something from this. I have always enjoyed sex, a lot and perhaps rushed into it more often than necessary. Having sex with someone changes things and clouds your judgement and sometimes we stay with people that we shouldn’t. Anyhow thats the trap I found myself in before.

This year I have dated and gone out with many lovely, sexy and fun to be around men. I just haven’t gone beyond a kiss. And you know what it has been very empowering. I have learnt so much about myself and what I want and what I don’t want out of a relationship and a partner.

Of course nearly everyday I see hot or interesting men about and pretty much change my mind haha but as I have said in a very early blog, It’s not about sex It’s about connection.

Actually the funny thing is now that I am nearing the end of the 12 months I am not feeling the need for a partner, at least not in the same way that I would have a year ago. I feel complete just being me, being by myself and enjoying my own company or with friends. There is a certain level of freedom I have now that I am not sure I can give away for just anyone.

This is what I have learned this year. Guess I will keep you posted if I last until March 5th

No more pets!

Kristy — Thu, 14 Oct 2010 09:07:51 +0000

Absolutely no more pets for us i.e. me!!!
I have had pretty much every pet under the sun since I was a kid. You know the usual cats, mice, rabbit, guinea pigs, and dogs and stuff and the more unusual as well. My pets just don’t always end up well though..

We had a cat that went up north with us to Mekkatharra and ended up getting skin cancer on her nose so that sucked. When in Mekka we had heaps of pets, I had a very cool Emu called Amy who was not cuddy but kinda unusual, when we left she went to a farm. I also had a goat called Priscilla but the Aboriginals ate her unfortunately…She was snow white and lived on a long rope tied to the back fence.

Prisilla

Amy the Emu

We also had chooks (chickens to you non Aussies) but when they got to old for laying the prisoners (my Dad was a cop) came and killed them for dinner ..Yes even Henny Penny *sigh*
I had for a time a little Spiny Mountain Devil as well and they look a bit like a lizard crossed with a dragon but really small. My sister and I collected Double Gees (a kind of prickle) and kept them in matchboxes and pretended they were its eggs

Feeding the Chooks

Then we got Pookie the miniature Pekingese dog who was very cute in a small yappy dog way. Dad set out to get a vicious dog and came home with him so I don’t know how that happened haha.He had a very odd way of chasing his own tail for hours and hours making everyone very dizzy indeed. We always thought it was an entertainment thing until we took him to the vet years later and found out he was actually epileptic the poor buggar!! Geez all these years… Anyhow it got so bad eventually he got put down.

Next came Breeze my pure black cat that I found from a cat home. He was lovely with blue eyes. Got him as a kitten and was the 1st pet I got as an adult. He was wayyy cooler than any other cat I have ever met and had a very cool attitude for life. Even after he got hit by a car or something and had to have one of his rear legs removed it didn’t stop him from doing anything He ran faster, climbed better than any cat I had ever seen. He travelled with Andy and I across to QLD and down south with no problems. He was a legend!

Breeze pre-accident

I stayed away from pets for ages esp. while in Indonesia (we had a little Rabies incident there – a dozen needles no harm done )
Then we came back and got fish ~ several times ~ died

Crazy Crabs~ Well you know I thought these would be a good choice.. they lasted and lasted… the novelty ran out a bit I looked after them for the kids as you do. I grew very attached to one in particular called Boof Head. He was the biggest one and had a really cool personality. Hermit crabs as you all might know out grow their shells and you replace them with new ones . Well Boofy flat out refused to swap shells. I bought every conceivable shell for the guy in every color size shape weight everything !! I even sat there for hours coaxing him, begging him to ‘move please move’ ‘its nice in there you will like it ‘ but alas he refused to give up his old comfortable shell. His body grew so massive for his little tiny shell and his attempt to hide in it were very sad. He eventually died and the irony was that when he died he fell out of his shell. I did however bury him with it though. I think he would have liked that

More recently I have had a few birds, I just love birds. First I bought home a Budgie and named him Boba Fett, you know like out of Star Wars … He is just awesome and I love him to bits. He won’t talk though, or come out of his cage and he kinda bites me when I stick my finger in… But we have this cute way of communicating just the same. Sometimes I put his cage out in the sun in the backyard and we sit and have a chat. I have no idea why he is so neurotic.

Boba Fett

A short time after bring home Boba, I bought 2 little Finches and named them Mace Windu and Obi Wan Kenobi. Well they did look like little Jedis with their brown and cream markings. They were so full of life and energy, I have never seen creatures so full on!! They zoomed around their cage all day and made so much noise and mess but I loved them .. One morning about 10 days after we got them we found them dead in the bottom of the cage for no good reason. Geez that was hard I cried and cried. Couldn’t work out why either, Boba was right next to them and he was fine…

The kids keep asking me for a dog!! Haha not likely !!!

Bloody Hell

Kristy — Sun, 10 Oct 2010 09:02:32 +0000

This week I have, in no particular order…

Nearly come to my death by being hit by a train whilst in my car
Attended a wedding of two of my dearest friends alone, single and actually had a wonderful time!
Been diagnosed with a shit genetic auto-immune disease
Had a really stressful work campaign to deal with
and last but not least fallen in love with one of my best male friends, finally just got the courage to do something about it and found he has just started seeing someone else.

Well doesn’t that just piss you right off!

I will blog about some of this more in detail later when I can be stuffed…

Today I just feel exhausted and broken.

Sometimes songs say it better.

Kristy — Thu, 23 Sep 2010 09:05:58 +0000

Well my day went from me singing this little tune

Darren Hanlon -All these things

To me going to work and saying for the whole shift ‘F@*k I hate my job’ over and over and still smiling. I better get one of those jobs I applied for. Plus I need the money. My job is eroding my self-esteem now …

After work I got into my car and played this as loud as you could imagine. I would write better but my brain isn’t working. Good lyrics!

Faithless – Mass Destruction

1 big virtual tattoo

Kristy — Wed, 22 Sep 2010 00:54:10 +0000

I had a stalker recently who freaked me out a bit and made me question how easy it was to track me or anyone else down just by knowing their name and/or mobile phone number. I have a private landline so am not listed but used to have a home business so had a lot of listings on the net that had landline and street address info. I have been madly cleaning this up for the last 4 odd years since the business sold. It’s pretty hard and I think the rule stands, ‘once its on the net it’s on the net forever’.

Anyhow while doing web searches on my own name (I know that sounds creepy) I found a whole lot of other stuff I forgot about. How about that lame Bebo profile that is now totally impossible to get rid of!! Bloody hell if anyone can help me out here please yell out! I had a Bebo (lame!!) profile in between myspace and facebook for a month or two. Bebo never really took off and I have only a few friends on there but it has a crappy old photo (public) and is no longer relevent and I want to close it. Every time I try logging on it doesn’t let me and same when I ask to confirm my password or get a new one. I have spent hours on this and it’s driving me nuts. Argh!!

I had a mini spin out when I discovered 4 other people with the exact same name as mine with amazingly similar taste on Amazon. Wow then the penny dropped. They were very very old saved wish lists of mine. Wtf how long does Amazon save this stuff for?? Like over 15+years wow. And all public hmm lovely.

Sure does make you think about the internet and what we put on here is going to be forever. Like a virtual tattoo.

I may never know

Kristy — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 08:54:17 +0000

Why is it so hard to tell how old someone is now days?? Its’s very annoying to not even be able to tell if someone is in your datable age group.

Why are men so shy about asking me out? Even for a friendly ‘out’ like coffee and a chat. I like that sort of thing. I am usually always the one to make the 1st move and that pretty much sucks. I wanna be wooed baby.

Am I reading it wrong and are they just not interested? It’s not like I am aiming too high…

Like today for example, I went into a gaming store to ask when this computer game was coming out and behind the counter was a cute guy. Ok I hate using the word cute but he was .. he had a little touch of the ginger too I should add. Anyhow we were talking for ages about games and stuff , the store, anything to give me a reason to stay there I suppose. Had some great eye contact, just love that. He told me he was moving stores. I asked his name . I said bye and left.

Sometimes moments are lost forever and that’s that.

Spring eyes.

Kristy — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 00:33:23 +0000

Nothing puts a sparkle into a day like a beautiful sunny spring day with an excuse to wear a sun dress and heels. So nice to feel the swooshyness of silk against my legs instead of jeans for once.

Can someone please tell me why my eyes were blue yesterday and green today. They always do that … very strange.

To be or not to be.

Kristy — Mon, 20 Sep 2010 08:01:37 +0000

Although I have always considered myself to be straight the last few months has had me question this. Maybe there is a lot of grey area here. I mean I love men and always will. A handsome mans’ masculine smell, strong hands, broad chest and umm other bits will always make my heart beat faster.

I have been with a girl, I mean who hasn’t now days? There was a time when it seemed trendy to experiment I guess, not that I have ever been the kind to follow order. She was so lovely, lets call her S… She had long long red hair down her back. Oh I do have a thing for red heads of both sexes it seems hehe. She was much younger than me and Bi. If I could describe her in one word it would be ‘perky’. Fantastic time and I still think about her years down the track.

As you will well know if you have been following this, I haven’t had sex for 6 months and 15 days!!! and that is a very long time for me actually. And as some of us do I found myself browsing the net looking at porn. Yeah ok stop pretending to be shocked. The style of porn that got me off really surprised me though. Found myself looking at girl on girl stuff. Why I have no idea??

Geez hope I am not going off guys or anything!

Just as expected

Kristy — Fri, 17 Sep 2010 13:44:30 +0000

Well I bailed yet again from my date. I guess it will be a while again before I get any….Really struggled through the day just couldn’t get my perky going you know. It’s a bit hard being non-perky when you have my job haha.

Found out yesterday that I am about 6 thousand short for the settlement on my house. Bloody taxes grrr ok so I have a week… I am going to the local swap meet on Sunday am going to sell all my stuff. Well all the stuff I don’t need anyhow. I have too many books for the new house I have come to this realization. I used to be so attached to my books, they were like a security blanket for me as a child. I have an entire wall of them and selling them will be a big deal for me. I will have to cull very carefully as I can’t sell any that are signed, 1st editions or were owned by family or special to read. Man this will be hard

I also have to part with a lot of clothes. I have a fair amount of pretty expensive stuff that is now a couple of sizes too big for me now. I should just sell them now I need the cash.

I have been listening to this album a lot the last few weeks. Lisa Mitchells ‘Wonder’. You know how sometimes music just catches a moment in time. Well lately I am either listening to hip hop or this kind of stuff. Complete opposite styles but the one thing that links them together is their honesty in lyrics. It’s the gritty-ness that’s just getting me.

Really love this song right now. Have a listen. It’s not ‘for’ anyone in my life, I just love it…

Lisa Mitchell ‘So Jealous’ Wonder

I am just so damn tired.